boys and hurt.

Yes everyone knows that boys can hurt us girls in some unrealistic way that no one really understands.
I can say personally that its happen to me two times.

First time was when my best friend (That is a guy) told me we could no longer be friends, it was for a stupid reason, but one that i understood. he loved his girlfriend and it was more important to make her happy then to have friends that will always be there for him that he could always count on, and i would still do almost anything if he needed help. And so i was deeply hurt by him, and our friendship has never been the same. But it was his choice and i respect that. And i still love him in a way, not like a romantic love but a brotherly/family love.

Second time would be by a guy that i truly adore, he is the most amazing guy i have met, nothing like any other guy, and i would call him *Perfect*, although i am still getting to know him and i know that NO one is perfect. I should have ran the other way when i saw him, BUT the glow that he had in his heart for the Lord drew me closer, and before you know i like him. And i mean like him so much that any little thing that upset him upset me. and when he was stressed about something, in some way it stressed me out. ( Yes i know that is really uncalled for but i have never truly liked a guy like him before ) he is truly one of a kind. and whoever is lucky to be with him should NOT take him for granted. he deserves so much, and i probably couldn't give it to him anyways. Not say i wouldn't try my hardest, i believe that i could pretty much do anything thing for him as long as that makes him happy. but i believe loving God before liking someone is what would make every little thing in our lives so much more perfect, because you cant start a relationship on just liking someone, there has to be some kind of intent behind relationship, one that the Lord would be proud of, and would resemble Him.
And like with my friend up above i would even stay away from him if needed. EVEN THOUGH i love him i would be able to. he means that much to me that i would be able to do it. I wouldn't like it of course but it is possible.

Ok, so in a different point of view, (Not that i really want to look this way but i will cuss you have to think of everything in these situations) Maybe he is not the one that God has for me and that i am just suppose to let him walk right out of my life, not knowing if he will ever pop back into it. And i think that this is a really great idea, but maybe God is just letting things go the way they are because i am not focused enough on God, and i am more focused on the things of this world. and this is a very big possibility, and i know for myself i am NOT ready to have a relationship.