Thought i would feel better by now, but I'm not, I'm jealous, irritated, hurt but not intentionally, feel like i lost him, but I love him and this is why i get hurt so much because i cant seem to let him go even though he is moving on with his life, seeing girls fall all over Daniel sickens me, makes me feel that he has any choice over anyone but it wont be me again. Im not sure how to change, and im not sure how to not let things hurt me, its hard when you care about someone. =( im lost and not making sence.
something he didnt know about me, when i am with someone like when i was with him or my other ex boyfriend i would always feel they would find someone better then I while with me and would leave me for them. yes they might not do that but that is how i have always felt, and i believe that will always screw things up in my relationships with any guy, but im not sure how to change my way of thinking.
I think it starts inside about how you feel about yourself and then once you're comfortable with YOU and loving God totally, that'll go away. You know that line "You complete me" from a famous movie? Well that's the way God should be in our lives (im preachin to the choir right now) and once that happens HE helps us work through things and sometimes it has to be with another person. You might just have to bring your insecurities up to a guy you date later on and that's ok.
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