Thought i would feel better by now, but I'm not, I'm jealous, irritated, hurt but not intentionally, feel like i lost him, but I love him and this is why i get hurt so much because i cant seem to let him go even though he is moving on with his life, seeing girls fall all over Daniel sickens me, makes me feel that he has any choice over anyone but it wont be me again. Im not sure how to change, and im not sure how to not let things hurt me, its hard when you care about someone. =( im lost and not making sence.
something he didnt know about me, when i am with someone like when i was with him or my other ex boyfriend i would always feel they would find someone better then I while with me and would leave me for them. yes they might not do that but that is how i have always felt, and i believe that will always screw things up in my relationships with any guy, but im not sure how to change my way of thinking.
