You think you love someone, they have always been there for you. They are your best friend, and have been for years. The your family thinks you guys should date.. and I agree, but then he says you can't because your ex boyfriends family would flip.. everytime I go to see him, call him or text him I get the stupid little butterflies in my stomach reminding me I can't be with him, and he doesn't want to put the effort into trying to make something work without worrying what other people think.
Have I ever found someone that can put up with my crazy self? Yes.. can I be with him? No. Honestly I don't know what to do. I'm in love with someone that can't be with me because he thinks the family would flip. Makes me want to cry.. I keep playing over in my head what I would say if we crossed the friends boundary but not to the relationship area... "you chose not to be with me, I'm not going to let this amazing friendship go down the drain because you want to have fun but not really be with me." Idk.. I feel lost, and some what hurt, but then again I push the hurt away because I had that once in my life, you know where you physically feel like there is a hole in your chest. I really want to trust people but I can't. I know I'm always going to get hurt, and I can't put myself in a position where he can, I wouldn't have anyone else to talk to that would be on the same level. He knows everything about me. I always make sure of it.
