Didn't realize how much of a city girl I am. I am so done with this town. Not that I don't love you all. It's just THIS is not my city. Seattle is my place to be.
Having things to do each night there is something I miss. Dancing(Swing), hanging out with friends. Being able to walk outside and seeing interesting people walk down the street. Being able to go to the lake and swim and hang out with friends have a BBQ, all day long with no cares in the world.
Being able to hang out with my best friend. Hopefully going to Seattle to work at corporate, and becoming someone I want to be. This town can't do it for me.
I love being able to go to work and enjoying the things I do, yes digital is fun, but once you get the same call over and over it's not as fun anymore.
This is my dream.
Move to Seattle be able to hang out with my friends while working hard to become who I want to be, and who God wants me to be.
Why can't I be happy?
PLEASE PRAY I GET THE JOB IN SEATTLE, I REALLY DON'T WANT TO STAY HERE ANYMORE. I WANT TO MOVE BACK TO THE PLACE I WAS SO HAPPY. THANKS!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Beastly...
Watched "Beastly" with my friends the last two nights.
This movie is quite amazing. It makes you think about rotten snobbiness, who your friends are. Who are fake, who are loyal. Who would be there for you in your deepest darkest hour. And who would ditch at the thought of having to do something for someone else.
Makes you think about love, and what this world is missing. It made me think, what if the whole world looked like on the outside, how their heart was on the inside. Would you want to be around it? Would you want to look like someone that was beaten, trashed tattered? Would you want to love someone that was ugly on the outside because that's who they were on the inside? Yes we all have our looks, and we care about them, but what if that was not enough? What if the reason this world is so crumby is because we care about what is on the outside and not what is on the inside.
If we all cared for 2-3 other people other than ourselves and they cared for 2-3 other people this world would already start to be a better place.
Love letters...
The long hand written hand letters that no one seems to do anymore. Is there someone in your life that you truly love? Are they worth hand writing a letter to? When I was in the theater.. And thinking of a person (guy) I would want to write a letter to, I came up short. I had a thing for my best friend at one point, but realized that nothing would come of it. He is my best friend, and I don't want to lose him. I do love him though. Honestly.
The person I would want to write a long love letter to would be someone that respects me, treats me like a gem. Someone I don't have to get mad at because they aren't acting like a gentleman. The last time I wrote a love letter to someone, I got hurt. Does this mean that every time I write one its going to happen, NO. Just means with my luck, I am going to have to be more careful.
Every time I think about someone as more than a friend, I think "can I live with them the rest of my life?" This is hard when it comes to the dating life. I am not a fan of dating, but I am not a fan of being single. However I am not going to just jump at the first man I see. Thinking of everything I want in a man will be a great idea. And is something I will be doing shortly. Till that man comes along I am not going to be worrying about guys.
Watching Lindy on "Beastly" was a breath of fresh air. She worried about her family, and school. Yes she had a crush on Kyle but, it still wasn't at the top of her list.
Things I need to worry about are my schooling, and how and when I am going to start. My family. My friends, but not get caught up in their drama. Things I can do for other people, while also getting a new job at corporate, and moving back up to Seattle.
Anyways...
Those are just a few thoughts floating around in my head tonight. Now to go to bed with my kitty.
This movie is quite amazing. It makes you think about rotten snobbiness, who your friends are. Who are fake, who are loyal. Who would be there for you in your deepest darkest hour. And who would ditch at the thought of having to do something for someone else.
Makes you think about love, and what this world is missing. It made me think, what if the whole world looked like on the outside, how their heart was on the inside. Would you want to be around it? Would you want to look like someone that was beaten, trashed tattered? Would you want to love someone that was ugly on the outside because that's who they were on the inside? Yes we all have our looks, and we care about them, but what if that was not enough? What if the reason this world is so crumby is because we care about what is on the outside and not what is on the inside.
If we all cared for 2-3 other people other than ourselves and they cared for 2-3 other people this world would already start to be a better place.
Love letters...
The long hand written hand letters that no one seems to do anymore. Is there someone in your life that you truly love? Are they worth hand writing a letter to? When I was in the theater.. And thinking of a person (guy) I would want to write a letter to, I came up short. I had a thing for my best friend at one point, but realized that nothing would come of it. He is my best friend, and I don't want to lose him. I do love him though. Honestly.
The person I would want to write a long love letter to would be someone that respects me, treats me like a gem. Someone I don't have to get mad at because they aren't acting like a gentleman. The last time I wrote a love letter to someone, I got hurt. Does this mean that every time I write one its going to happen, NO. Just means with my luck, I am going to have to be more careful.
Every time I think about someone as more than a friend, I think "can I live with them the rest of my life?" This is hard when it comes to the dating life. I am not a fan of dating, but I am not a fan of being single. However I am not going to just jump at the first man I see. Thinking of everything I want in a man will be a great idea. And is something I will be doing shortly. Till that man comes along I am not going to be worrying about guys.
Watching Lindy on "Beastly" was a breath of fresh air. She worried about her family, and school. Yes she had a crush on Kyle but, it still wasn't at the top of her list.
Things I need to worry about are my schooling, and how and when I am going to start. My family. My friends, but not get caught up in their drama. Things I can do for other people, while also getting a new job at corporate, and moving back up to Seattle.
Anyways...
Those are just a few thoughts floating around in my head tonight. Now to go to bed with my kitty.
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